We live! Claim your voice

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I will not apologize for being who I am in words, action or thought. I will not shrink, diminish, or minimize myself to make anyone comfortable & I will not adapt to foolishness as not to rustle feathers. It is not to say that I have not accommodated in the past or brushed off others crap; it is to say that the more that you do that, the easier it becomes to do.

When I thought of writing this blog, I was reminded of a situation a couple of weeks ago where someone tried to diminish my expression and defer my sense of being able to handle a situation. They were trying to rewrite my words upon me speaking them, because I don’t always communicate in a linear way. This person did not take time to adjust, see, or be present to what I was doing, but instead side coached my whole process. This was appropriate because I sound young, am a black woman, and also can stand the ability to not have a stick up my rump all the time, so I must just be chatting, must be off topic, lacking the ability to be deliberate, or connect with others, and follow rules at the same time. Right?

I recognized the undertone of a need to control what I was doing rather than be present to it and re-route later or them allowing themselves to trust my particular process, since everyone is their own person. (A bit of background: I was being coached on a specific technique and method of doing something, but I had not veered off course yet enough to be interrupted the disproportionate amount of times that I was). I am not writing this because I can’t take criticism, am being overly sensitive, or desiring to complain. My intention is to share that you do not have to let anyone make you feel inferior because they don’t understand you, don’t work the same, are trying to control you, or have insecurities.

When people are used to certain ways of expression and they think that everyone should conform to those ways, it’s disheartening because then you realize that there is such a desire within some people to control and curate others (especially women & people of color’s processes because they are not presented or expressed within a certain expected narrative, are not necessarily robotic, verbally edited to be syrupy sweet, chipper, surface, redirecting, curled at the ends, removed, or presented in a covering state that some Americans have grown to be used to expecting for others to carry as a one size fits all way to express themselves and means of accepting others.

I did not say that the instruction was helpful or nice because it wasn’t. I am not sure of the way that I put my words together anymore, but I made sure that they were not apologetic or acceptance seeking, because I knew that I was being mistreated and that the person needed to know that I knew it was not fair or amusing.

If this takes me out of certain places, those places were not for me. If it removes me from people, those were not my people. Meanwhile, the plan is that I’m going to womanifest the $#^t out of this abundant life that I’ve been given. If we live a life of plenty, we must stop believing in and exuding lack. With the lemons, make herbal tea, lemonade, lemon cake, lemon water, juice them, use them for a still life, give one away, hold one in gratitude, rub it on your skin for toner, make fire cider, liver tonic, flavor your food, or whatever you need to do, do that!

Life is too vast, rich, and precious to wallow in dissatisfaction and a downplayed self worth, lack of self respect, or a shaky self love. Breathe and walk in your purpose with all the beauty and love that you are. Some people expect you to cower in the face and expression of their fear. Show them that you are born of the most. Show yourself and them that you are encompassing, cohesive, non random, unimaginable energy just as their ego was, and that what you exude is stronger than ego because it’s rooted in innerstanding, purpose and self love.

 

An affirmation to move forward:

  • I have released anything that has served its purpose, and I blossom in the deliberate strength and purpose of my existence. I am divinely protected and attracting the bounty of life!

 

A poem Inspired by the incident:

Just because your eardrums have issues holding space for the tones vibrancy and resonant frequencies uttered through my vocal cords to translate and harmonize spirit doesn’t mean that I will allow my voice to crack break and exude a pitch that you find more pleasant.

My people are not just of the valley 

We have been here since before this realm was released

If you need to close your eyes as I walk by, do what you need to do as you await that I scurry by 

Realize I tend to move in ways akin to the dance of a baby enjoying the freedom of the womb 

I am here to disappoint your expectations and appoint myself to my highest position in frequency and physical ability 

Nurtured in sacred space

My movements are a dance to the hums of black existence 

What you may not be able to see through, is sharp, full, all encompassing..

We live this music

You close your eyes and hear it

Block your ears and see it

Can’t escape it so you wish to change it, but we flow with the change and easily adapt to furthering life

When you can’t see, all of the other senses step in to function more keenly.

We all have night vision.

That’s inner vision

Though some are afraid of the dark

You label us the minority

Though in actuality that’s primarily only a hope for you or even just a wish.

When you look at reality, oh my how the picture is vividly flipped

You are the minority among brown and Black faces indigenous 

We give you back your gods 

So that we may properly reflect and recreate our image 

We dissolve mourning our lives in your hands and have no desire to beg at your mercy

We have always created

Recreated

Remixed

Procreated

Covered

Uncovered 

Protected 

Nurtured

Somehow focus gets redirected from staring at screens and embracing dreams deferred

Redirecting

We celebrate the highs and lows of our lives breath voices skin tones and pieces of our glory in daily life stories because this is what makes us human and visible

Creates our identities 

We will not cower and mourn in the darkness because we are full enough to do so in the light

We work to re-image our brokenness to visions and plans of building instead.

Home

Who are we to be fragmented compartmentalized beings? We are the world

Since the beginning and through the endings as the sun rolls across the sky each day

To reveal a different aspect of life 

Of creation

We create

How dare we believe we must sacrifice ourselves to live

as we were born creations as gifts.

We give a home to life 

And live

We live.

Home

 

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Copyright© 2018 Narelle Thomas

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“Allow me to re-introduce myself!…”

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I attended an event one of the last times I performed last year, it was a beautiful event with very gracious hosts, good people and a nice environment, but when I was introduced I was introduced as a spoken word artist with a special poem to share. I wasn’t well acquainted with the hostess very well because she was newer to what she was doing and in general I thought that I would have been introduced a little better than a talent show participant and more like the professional artist that I was/am. I was kind of disappointed.

Later I thought (because I didn’t go the extra mile to give myself a proper introduction following the poorer one) that it was my fault.

Let me explain..

In my opinion it is your responsibility first to represent yourself. No one will be a representative of you better than yourself. You must be your biggest hype-person, representative and cheerleader through words and action. You don’t have to be dramatic and overbearing, but it’s important to conduct yourself in a way that is indicative of who you are and what you’re about. They say “first impressions are everything” so it’s important to be authentic and show gratitude for what others give to you, but if someone is not representing your fullness (which only you can really do for yourself) it’s important to use the amount of time you have to really clarify what you see fit to bring to the light. If someone mispronounces your name, correctly and politely speak your name as it should be spoken because that is what others will call you. If you don’t embrace what makes you who you are then no one else can. Be confident in this because it’s necessary to be glad for who you are and what you’ve become up to this point. There is nothing wrong with sharing that. In the words of Jay-Z “allow me to re-introduce myself!..” If you don’t give yourself the proper credit, you can’t expect anyone else to, because most likely unless you have a bio that they’re reading from, or unless they follow what you’re doing, or are prepared for your performance, they won’t know and you can’t expect that your audience knows it all either. In the moment before you do anything, you are here for yourself.

I can say this because I’m on the quieter side and I’m not boastful or a diva so people probably could think that it’s okay to interact with me that way more easily or might be quicker to do so, but this post is not really about me. Sometimes I feel younger artists may deal with these types of situations too where some will underestimate you because you’re young, you look younger than your age by a great deal, or because older people may not really know how to celebrate younger artists besides by building on the fact that they’re “so young” (which is often a remarkable and celebration-worthy thing, but should not be built upon just the fact that they’re young and so they condescendingly get false praise but that’s another story).

It can also be interesting at local shows where some look at you a certain way for not being a huge artist yet. The thing I would say to that would be to keep going, because as you go, you grow! Know your amazing-ness! As you do more and more of what you love, you improve until you get to the places that you aspire to be. Everyone starts somewhere and most likely if you’re in a place to be able to share your work, there’s a reason that YOU were chosen. Reflect on that why and build with it. Whether you’re paid or not paid, being in front of a crowd (no matter the size) is an important moment of connection. It’s a beautiful opportunity to really touch others and pour your essence into your work. Introduce yourself properly and as my former director and amazing friend and inspiration Magdalena Gomez would say before shows, “Go out there to love them.” It’s not so much about them loving you. If you’re authentic, how can people not? To me it was very clear to always go out to set your intentions free. Your work is to deliver something to the people, and that is your highest form of representation, responsibility and reciprocity. Go and GIVE. This speaks even if you actually drop the ball and don’t introduce yourself as you’d like or need to, or you let someone else do it and don’t add to it re- introduce yourself. Whatever you give, you will get back in return and guess what? You’ll meet those people face to face and you can expand from there.

You may have one shot on stage to “get it right” but life is so forgiving, that when you go with your spirit and do what you feel strongest, it all works out in the end as it did for me. I wrote this because I felt unsettled a bit from that experience and wanted to share something that I learned in the process and expand upon it to include a couple other things, but my main lesson was self-representation. You can’t rely on or expect for anyone else to do your work for you. And guess what? you win some, you learn from some, and you make it out great because when you don’t feel strong in your work, it’s a place to build from. It’s a point to strengthen and reinforce. Reinforce your intention, stay focused in your purpose and see your actualization play out and then continue until what you envisioned is closer and closer. Write it, say it, believe it, see it, and know it. Go out to set your intentions free. Let them grow what you wish to receive.

Thanks for reading & Much Love to you and yours

~Narelle

 

Copyright© 2018 Narelle Thomas

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Questions for the living

People tend not to question things that have been traditional amongst family and larger groups only because it’s safer that way. Because it’s easier that way.. Because it’s tradition..if it has no moral spine or spiritually or ethically and you have no other reason for its continuance, what is the point in upholding it? To make someone happy? If it is your life, you have the right to express and reinforce what you stand in…what will help another continue to stand, because you did not submit to falling into a place of confusion.. Of something being Okay because everyone views it as such
If you continue to live for other people’s opinions and values, if it does not resonate with your spirit,
Do you choose to dedicate your current life to tradition and being correct and complacent and not fully expressing all of yourself so you can attract experiences of growth and healing? Will you reincarnate as your current self to be given the chance to try again? And once you are will you be too used to your old ways to give them up? Will you be able to connect with spirit anymore or will you just be a collection of pleasing things and unquestioned traditional customs and values?
What are you doing for those who came before you? Those that will come after..Will you strive or struggle in your purpose today?

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Reflections of the 20th year, Becoming..21

A poem in gratitude of my 20 yrs

I wrote this a couple weeks before my 21st birthday/solar return/earthstrong/new year

I just wanted to share this piece, in reflection and in thanks for life

I meant to post this yesterday

thought to share it anyhow, despite the lateness

 

Thank you for who I am

Thank you for who I have become

Thank you for everything I have gone through in life

The good and the bad

Or the things that seemed to be of either

Because every piece of those circumstances has brought me new or highlighted wisdom

To help me go through what I am today

With a victorious mind and spirit

In  the receptivity of my mind and acceptance in my heart makes things matter of fact

Thank you for the parents I have

The families I come from for sharing their talents with me

Thank you for everything they’ve done and are still doing for me

Thank you for what they have taught me knowingly and unknowingly

Even if we have problems we are still connected and are reinforcement

We can make it together as long as we love ourselves

Thank you for those who treat me like family in the knowledge of our oneness as transcendental temporary earth beings

Thank you for allowing such genuine people into my life

Thank you for my king

Thank you for us being able to live harmoniously and complimentary

Thank you

For the affirmation

Thank you for the truth because without it I would have been on a path that is not my own

Trying to give fully what I only had on loan

Lost

Not able to find home because I had equated loneliness with being alone

Deficient because I made it so

Because when you worry it will only come back 100 fold

Universal law says

Whoever has gratitude will be given more;  and he or she will have an abundance

Whoever does not have gratitude even what he  or she has will be taken from him or her

Thank you for the visionary in me

To be able to see that trying to create a picture in someone’s eyes that isn’t a reflection of reality is wrong and will only come back to bite me

See you can’t try to convince someone that things are one way when they really are another and not think that everything will hide once the light of truth shines

The truth does not discriminate

It only illuminates what life can be once you accept things as they presently are

If you build from a fake portrait of reality, you wonder why later you get played like a dummy

Fakeness only fits more fakeness

Like blocks of a tower you have to build what you want to have the greater power

If you build with hate anger embarrassment or fear you will take away from the good at present

and will end up hurt even more

Just be firm in the truth

Don’t be scared of what others will think of you

Because  sooner rather than later, they will find out anyway

Remember truth does not discriminate

Build on self-respect

Stand in your truth

Others will respect you for it

Know that what keeps you up is worthy of reinforcement

If you build your life to look a certain way, it will all crumble

if you choose to build with what’s fake, you will see that you were the only one fooled in thinking you were building to begin with

Be accepting or let it go

Thank you for helping me to see that I don’t know everything

However, it is quite contrary

I have a lot to learn and am eager

I’m excited

Thank you for this 21st year in counting

Thank you for all that I have learned

Help me to be able to teach what I receive and learn more as I am blossoming

Becoming, growing, and thriving

Thank you for helping me to see myself as I am and who I choose to become

I can only work with what is naturally inside of me

I am just a chemist in this field of biology

In reflection I have found, there is a serious problem if people can’t look in the mirror and say I am beautiful

I am happy

I am victorious

I am thriving

I am becoming the best I can be

Mean every word and not be considered arrogant, conceited, or boastful

Without someone telling us first or us asking permission to say so, apologizing, or being ashamed for being so bold

Let me be a living testament to break the walls of insecurity and share that you are not wrong for loving yourself

And being comfortable in who you are and in line with yourself

We are here to pave the way for others

We are here to fulfill our destinies

Become the highest wo/manifestations of our vibrancy

We are supposed to be the best of ourselves for the betterment of humanity

Stand for truth, not shy away

We are supposed to live this life in love.. every second, minute, and hour of every day

and know that the step you take now is just the first of a beautiful journey

Give thanks

Everything is all right all the time

It’s part of the divine plan..no matter how difficult

We are learning what we need to know to make us stronger

I’ve learned that I am a diamond

I’ve had to go through pressure to become one

I am a pearl

I had to be a grain of sand

Many grains of sand

I am a butterfly

I had to be a caterpillar for a long time

I had to be in a cocoon

A chrysalis

I had to go through many states

I am always transforming

Narelle Ankh Khepera

This is a journey of life

In life, I am

becoming

Thank you

Copyright© 2014 Narelle Thomas

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Beautiful- A tribute to breast cancer survivors

Hi everyone,

Just a bit of background:

I wrote this piece because I was asked to perform a piece for A Breast Cancer Survivors Ball. I was very shocked at this invitation and deeply touched because I have never been through this or been around anyone closely enough to even share personal experiences, but was trusted for such an offering. I wouldn’t be able to make it so I recorded this piece and decided to share it on my site and soundcloud. The event (Pretty In Pink) was held by Gardner’s House which is an organization that helps people with Cancer to get necessities and support that they need despite circumstances. The founder is a breast cancer survivor herself. I find her story very inspiring. She is a beautiful person and full of strength. As I explored more and more stories on breast cancer survivors and their families, this is what came to me. Find out more about the dynamic and excellent work of Gardners House here: http://www.gardnershouse.org

 

Beautiful

 

They said I would not make it to see today

This morning I opened my eyes

Breathed the breath of life

And knew that there was a reason why

I give thanks

I cannot stop

 I have to try

There is a reason why

When adversity comes we must learn how to ascend

We must teach ourselves to fly

Pink is symbolic of my struggle

of my climb

of how far we have come

and that we can still have fun

It keeps me inspired to do more because there is more to come

It reminds me I have and must continue to do more than just survive

To enhance the quality of life

To be beautiful and bold enough to take the masked faces off of our fears

Embrace the tears from many nights of remembrance and dealing

 

The days to this point have not been easy

Many nights I cried myself to sleep

Heaving oxygen wondering why all of this now?

To me?

Cancer did not make me who I am, but on this journey I refused to let it break me

The reality hit when they said I have numbered days to live

That was the hardest part of the day but in acceptance of what may come I found truth

Death begins in the mind and I have more work to do

Sometimes the ugliest things in life show us the true beauty within

It breaks us down to show us what created the bonds in our foundation

 

It took me so long to see

I had been blind

Keeping up with appearances and holding onto unnecessary things

They say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder but what does that mean when your eyes are not seeing reality

If there is no room to see what can be

 

They said I would not make it to see today

This morning I opened my eyes

Breathed the breath of life

And knew that there was a reason why

Every night I will shine with the stars

Shine the light on visions of sunrise

Every day I will rise with the sun

Warm and brilliant

Blossoming as the flowers do

Growing through adversity

Triumphant

Spreading my wings and soaring like the birds do

Coming out of my cocoon

I am no longer in hiding or ashamed

Or to be pitied

I am a reflection of possibility

A beauty

In rare form

No longer feeling like a victim

I am a victorious woman

And I still dream

Finding blessings in each piece of every day

A kind word

A loving hug

A smile so warm

The calm of the rain

The force of the storm

The rainbow after

 

Fall came around and my hair was falling as much as the green from the trees

Preparing for the coldest winter
Waiting for the warmth of spring
Every day in the interactions and encounters

Discouraging appointments filled with sympathy
I am more than a body
No empathy
Sorry ma’am We can’t do anything
But I must do everything
And through all of this they say you’re so beautiful
Through the daily tears
Through the hair that went from blowing to gone with the wind
Beautiful
No more breasts that aspired to make me voluptuous
Beautiful
Dress clothes free
A minor touch of make-up
Beautiful
That is what they’d call me
So I asked my boyfriend one day when everything sent to me seemed to be crumbling or washed away by the tide
Why everyone thought I was so  beautiful now
He almost instinctively said that it was the determination to live
The passion to experience the ability to breathe once more
The fight to get better and become stronger every day
The optimism when the world tries to take it away and show you every reason to complain
Influencing you to give up
Redefining the conditioning we have received about beauty
Because it is something that grows within you and radiates
You are an inspiration reminding us to never give up
Emphasizing that the quality of life is one of the most valuable things in life
That it isn’t what happens to you that creates you
It is what you choose to become

They said I would not make it to see today

This morning I opened my eyes

Breathed the breath of life

And knew that there was a reason why

To be all that I can be
My full self
To not only be pretty in pink but to embrace my beauty

Our beauty

To express the spectrum inside of me

 

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Intro/Foreword to Unspoken Sound- book available now!

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          Unspoken Sound

        

By: Narelle Thomas

 

 

 

 

 

Dedication:

To my ancestors

 

 

“I believe that our spirit is our ancestors,  and that they’re in our blood, and that they constantly run through our bodies and keep us going..

The blood of your parents, and the blood of their parents all come together to create you, and they are trying to give you ideas, because when they go through your mind they say things like ‘hey listen turn right do not go left’

they’re trying to tell you things that can help you

things that can improve you, because the longer you go on the longer they go on

the stronger you are, the stronger they are

the more people want to know about you, the more they find out about them, and how they tried to help each other. I believe the spirits are beneath each one of us”- Gil Scott Heron”14

 

 

 

Acknowledgements:

Thanks also to Bernice and Leroy Thomas (mommy and daddy), Mom and Papa, My aunts Pamelar & Yolanda Johnson, Kemet Maroon, April Simmons, Blanche Jackson- Hill, Frank Weston, The Anderson Family: Darlene, Sherwin, and Shannon, Jimmy and Erwin, My cousins: Tay, Tosha, Alex, Alexis, and Terrance, Aida Nieves, Roderick Kelly, Davidson Esan, Neach Kobain, Von Don, The Phillips Family: Glynis, Amiya, and Ronnie, Seba Rkhty Amen and Dr. Phil Valentine of the University of Kemetian Sciences, Noble Anpu Galileo, Nia Akasha, Jacqueline Williams- Hines, Dennis Henry, Kayla Sanders, Linda Thomas, Mary Jane Eustace, Matthew Jaquith, The Springfield Public Library, Raeven Jemison, Ayana Harrison, Maria Luisa Arroyo and Magdalena Gomez

For your continuous encouragement and support of my projects, and plans. I love and appreciate you.

Much love to everyone who supports any of my efforts, all of those who I have ever encountered and spoken to, shared a brief conversation with, a smile, or good laugh. You have a place in my heart.

 

©2013 Narelle Thomas. All rights reserved. No part of this chapbook, which contains original works by the artist, Narelle Thomas, can be duplicated, reproduced, performed or disseminated without the express written permission of the artist.

 

 

 

CONTENTS 


Foreword.……………………………………………………………………4

Knowledge……………………………………….……………………………… 8

Love Again…………………………………………………………………..10

Embarrassment………………………………………….…………………………15

You are NOT the dumping ground………………………………………………18
What kind of people do you see?……………………………………………………………………..20

Are you an artist? To the disrespectful “artists”………………………………………22

Indestructible……………………………………………………………………….…..24
Burns to the Soul (Image)………………………………………………………….29

Back to natural……………………………………………………………………………..29
Back to the beginning/ Big Chop (Image)……………………………………………33
Gender Natural/Neutral………………………………………………………34
The Mad Black Woman……………………………………………………………………39
Mother Nature (Image)…………………………………………………………….42

No More Excuses…………………………………………………………………………..43
Locked In- Breaking News………………………………………………………….45

Locked In- Breaking News (Image)…………………………………………………………….48

Time to Learn- High School………………………………………………………….49

Childhood (Image)……………………………………………………………………………..57

Butt Kiss- A sure way to lose…………………………………………………………..52

Love the Children……………………………………………………………….54

Food………………………………………………………………………………………58

Take off the 3D Glasses and Live!…………………………………………………………………. 64

Black- On- Black- Love………………………………………………………………………….67

The Root of All Evil………………………………………………………………………………..75

Soaring Upwards…………………………………………………………………………..77

 

 

 

 

 

Foreword

 

The truth doesn’t sit well with everyone. Not everyone can accept it as it is. Who wants to work on becoming better, changing, and breaking away from what they know so that they can start working on something that may not come easily? It may be very hard to change your mind about what you have held onto for so long. It may be painful and lonely feeling like an outcast, to be strong in a world that constantly tries to get you down and thrives in your weakness. It is not always encouraging being optimistic. However, when you begin anything you have to understand that planning, sacrificing, and struggle brings success. Know that everything is working for your benefit.

 I’ve learned not to complain when I am able. I have learned not to complain when I’m not able because, there is always a way, even if only in vision. You’ll never find a way if you focus on what is in your way. No matter how hard things get I always remember this image I saw online one day where a man is diamond mining and then it shows one man working really hard to get to the end (that he can’t yet see). He was about half way there and working persistently. The man below him is walking in the opposite direction discouraged. It shows the path that he paved to reach the diamonds and it turns out that he dug all the way to them and just had not reached them. If he had of struck the ground one more time he would have had them all.

In some form, there will always be a sacrifice you have to make to reach your goal. Sacrifice breeds success because you are showing reciprocity by understanding that what you have will help you to get what you need. In sacrifice, you are showing gratitude. With strategy you are being diligent. You are preparing with what you have so that you can receive what you need. In taking action, you may struggle, but struggle brings success.

Struggle brings success, because success is what you are working to achieve by being focused and over time you will progress. Through your struggle you must share. By sharing you are creating, reinforcing and ensuring success.

We need to be disciplined individuals to achieve; not only in school, or work, but in life. Achievement is different to everyone. We need to do when no one else is watching us. We need to practice our speech when no one else is listening. We need to be strong when we are the only ones to be strong for. We need to do this without aspiring to receive congratulations or obtain a pat on the back. We need to be self-motivated and disciplined enough to get what we need for ourselves and our people, our families, for the future generations. We have to aspire to greatness and work with it even when the only greatness we see is in our will, ancestor’s works, and visions from our dreams. We must reach still in the knowledge of what will be. As Gandhi says “we must be the change that we wish to see.”

When we are being the change we continue to encourage ourselves and encourage others. We are encouraging growth and being a catalyst to change. The important thing is to learn how to do just enough. Don’t do too much. Don’t do enough to barely get by. Do what is necessary to complete your objective. Work smartly. Work hard strategically. I have learned that it is important to practice focusing, because asking too many questions, for too long can create distraction and detract from capturing the essence of the topic. So pay attention and ask what will be instrumental to your understanding.

 

I hope that this work will inspire a doer, but not just any kind of doer, a radical doer. I hope this because we need to radically change and we need people who are not afraid to create it. We can no longer do what we have done and just keep hoping, praying, tolerating, and getting by; because in the meantime us and our loved ones grow older, sick and tired, suffer in impoverished minds, conditions, and are ridden with disease. We become easier to please, because we are taught that this is what happens as we grow older, so we pass on these tendencies through our lines while our ancestors watch and wonder when we will turn down the distractions and sit still long enough to hear what they are saying.

 

My intention in writing this book is to provide a perspective that I feel is not often enough shared. I not limited to, but fully, a young African melanin dominant woman in America. As a younger person, as a person of African ascent (decent), I feel that we have been spoken for, misrepresented, and spoken through. Through all this I feel as though we are not really heard and understood as well in current times. I found writing this book to be my responsibility. As Sister Souljah says “I Mean No Disrespect” to anyone that reads any part of this. Wounds often sting or burn before they scab up and heal. They cannot heal well with bandages on them all the time. They must be exposed to the air. I am not sorry for anything that I have written. I encourage others to do the same if you are so compelled and if you feel something speaking to you, don’t ignore it. In turn, I just wanted to share some of my experiences, my thoughts, things that have come to me, information and observations. These truths may help to bring clarity to others as they have to me.

I source people that I have listened to online, in person, those whose books I have read, whose music I can vibe to, and whose words have brought something different to my awareness. I don’t agree with everything everyone says or does. I understand that some people are considered “controversial” but I am a person who can see truths in a message. I can see the reason. I am not one to label others based on any “evidence”, theories, or accumulated views. I let people be as they are and can listen to a “crazy” person and find truth in their words just the same. I can do this because I respect differences; have a vision for myself and direction over myself.

I do not confine myself to any one view on anything. I may only agree with and practice one fully, but our world is not flat, as we live in a multidimensional place, as it takes many pieces to create a whole, as there are many facets to a gem, I have learned to never take things at face value. We are all created equal. So we all have an equal right to be ourselves. We all have a right to understand ourselves by knowing who we are and what makes us who we are. What makes us different, what makes one person whole may not make another whole, because we all are configured equally in different ways. It is similar to the make-up of a dollar. Businesses usually accept money in whatever form it may come in; whether it is ten dimes, two quarters and five nickels and twenty five pennies, or twenty nickels. I find that you can learn from someone no matter their background in life, culture, views etc. when you innerstand the heart (truth) that a message carries.  If you can build on anything, build what rubs against your heart, whatever resonates within the beats.

This chapbook contains much of my experiences and observations that I have made throughout my life, but especially within the past five years.

 

I originally was going to call this book “Peace..Love..and Possibility”. Those are recurrent themes in my work. Later I renamed it “Growth”. That is part of the mission and undercurrent of this work. Later I came up with “Unspoken Sound”. The idea came from “A Song for Assata” by Common. I really look up to Assata Shakur for her strength. Common captured her autobiography well in the few minutes of that song. He says she discovered that “freedom is an unspoken sound and a wall is a wall. It can be broken down.”

This was sort of reminiscent of Harriet Tubman to me (The “Unspoken Sound”).  The strength of the Underground Railroad. To freedom. Harriet Tubman didn’t yell her plans. She took action through the night, in code. My first chapbook of poetry is entitled “When Silence Speaks”. I thought this fit perfectly because “Unspoken Sound” is more extended writing. It is all free-form and creates a new image to me. Everything was written; the book became tattered through the years and fell apart. It blew in the wind of time and pieces scattered themselves throughout my life. They were embedded in conversations, songs, TV, people I’ve encountered, in thoughts from all different places. This book is a culmination so far, each was specifically chosen, because they all impacted my life in big ways.

 These are the sounds that the people called crazy hear and usually express

These are the ones that people choose to drown out

 These sounds return though

 These are of truth so they resonate transcending time when the events within have not changed and acknowledged them

 These are the codes that when cracked open up and lead to freedom

 These aren’t always appreciated when heard, and when heard, aren’t always understood, but they reach the receiver with intention

 There are no accidents

They are heard when they are accepted

These are the unspoken sounds.

 

 

 

 

 

 

     

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Beloved

Beloved
He called me
All I wanted was to be loved
Be loved
Beloved
He loved me deeply
Freely
Fully
Unconditionally
He was a man
But I could not be what he needed though he believed in me
Said not to let fear of the unknown hinder me
Don’t close off to healing myself
Beloved
He showed me what it was like to Be loved
I wasn’t perfect
Constantly reminding him of my flaws
When all he reflected to me was beauty
We were an extraordinary couple
Too bad I was too caught up in what I was not to realize what we were
He called me beloved and I never understood it
Never really felt it
Before I left he told me to be love
I could be loved
I could accept love if I was love
If I let love in
If I found it in myself I could give love
He said he loved me
He said be love
You will be loved
Beloved

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