Happiness

Happiness
I’m convinced that it exists
I’ve only barely hugged its remnants
fell for the feeling that is rumored to be experienced
and if I’ve really come across it,
happiness is not something that you will take from me anymore
I would say you can’t give it to me either but I’d be lying
can’t deny the smile that might run across my face and in my heart but sometimes it seems it can be replaced with disappointment
dissatisfaction
I mean I can control my attitude
my actions
how do I react?
after you make happiness disappear do I sit and mope or do I bring myself to a state of peace?
where does peace come from?
and if you don’t possess peace deep within you how will you find it anywhere? well there is a peace in knowing that change is coming whether you embrace it or not
or are visionary enough to see it before it arrives
change is coming
I change my outlook
use my inlook
I continue to work for positive change as reinforcement and look up to the possibility of it all getting better
I look in to find reassurance
where I feel it will be okay
I know
so I say
do not focus your energy on what does not serve to your benefit
let it make space somewhere else
It does not determine anything for you
it will only arrive if you neglect what is right for you to focus on
your surroundings may not be of you but you create the environment that is within you
it is when you forget this that you become a product of it
and if you blame, you blame because you are not taking responsibility or are uneasy with your decision making
an elder told me not to be afraid to ask for help
help I didn’t realize I needed until I put my situation in a perspective outside of myself
so yes he helped by telling me that
and I will help myself to apply it when needed
happiness is what some say you can only pursue
to an extent I agree
but you must first be content with the truth
I think to find it in its truth you must reach deep inside
find and celebrate the real you
do the same with others
inner peace
a knowledge
create less hate
creates more lovers
lovers of life
lovers of self
lovers of others
an acceptance
possibility
and affirmative action
a happiness
so since that day when you left your words echoed in my head
are you happy? will you be happy?
happy
I should have seen them
those words
I should have understood
peace is inside happiness is its manifestation outwardly
when you come into truth
when unhappy you target the root
don’t confront the product
go to what’s inside you
use it to create more of what is needed
happy
..when you are open to life
so yes I guess there is always good in the seemingly bad
always a happy in the sad
life is transformative
so to answer the question yes I am happy
because I am at peace
because I know where I am
Happy
means I know where I’m going even if I don’t know what it will take to get there
I am happy
grateful for life
Happy..
I’m exploring
but I know I have found peace

Copyright© 2012 Narelle Thomas
All rights reserved.

A Tribute to Magdalena Gomez- Happy Birthday!

Magdalena Gomez

People know her for many things

Performance Poet

Playwright

Arts Educator

Columnist

Co- Founder and Artistic Director of Teatro V!da

Magdalena Gomez

My inspiration

mentor

teacher

and friend

a woman of compassion and strength

that teaches me many things

like that i  can bring myself way farther than I ever thought i could reach

and when in doubt reach anyway

do not be scared but prepared

for anything..

and

“Narelle this is your last chance, if we can’t hear you this time call your mother to come and pick you up, because we can’t spend anymore time on just you”

“do you all think that’s fair?”

after that rehearsal, i decided that it was and worked to make sure it didn’t happen again next week

She helped to nurture my outside of the box thinking

and to see stories like kaliedescope images

there are many pieces shapes and colors that create the image that you see

it is the same with self expression

we all have a piece of the story

because we are all a part of the image

and when the lines serve to separate us bend them into circles of connection or connect the dots to see a new story

She told me that we are more alike than you may think

and as always that made me think

but also made me feel like i’m walking a path where it’s not so lonely

and taught me that living with intention is pretty hip

In an interview I was reading 

she said that “even in times of great sorrow, we must choose to find what is encouraging and life giving, how we choose to live our lives is the greatest lesson we teach.”

well in response to that Magdalena

I’d like to say thank you for always presenting me with a life giving option in which to grow from

thank you for the infinite lessons that you continue to share with me and the world each day that you live

and for showing society the beauty of being a woman of color that is fearless

fierce

brilliant

and bold

to not always do what you are told

but to do what is necessary

Copyright© 2012 Narelle Thomas
All rights reserved.

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